life blew my mind

there is so much 
i want to say to you
about my life
and how
it unfolded
it has been
such a journey
of innocence lost
and endless
wandering
in the wilderness
it has been such a
rich tapestry

and opening
this closed heart,
defended by walls
built by fear,
took such effort
i died
yet in that very death
i became
a phoenix
resurrected.

i am madman, fool, lover
misfit, poet and clown.

life blew my mind
and i am forever grateful
i was once a prisoner
and my mind was
my jailer
and when it blew
it blew the 
fucking doors off
and i stepped
out
into the fresh air
of the 
complete unknown.

there is so much 
i want to say to you
about my life
but, my friend
and fellow traveller
i will sit here
with you
in silence 
and let our stories
dissolve 
into the great ocean.

42
Camden Town, London. Approx 1980. The new wave look, bleached hair, backcombed.
303
London 2011. I surrendered everything to this love and it took what I couldn’t surrender. Only freedom remained.
Kavi Hockaday-1236
2015 – London

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